suffering heart

to u istill excpecting u and isleep and my tounge keep praying maybe u be guided and back to me my heart love r tiring thos memor yes.and her arrows have no mercy on my weakness or my bones softnessmy love in everyday night.iputt my head on the white pillow that full of my tears washing it.and close my eyes and eyelid on eyelid.and u penetrate me by ur black shirt and ur lips polluted withthe rest of ur sweetness and shake me with deep childesh violance u have to take u out.and itry convince u to delay it and u refused and use ur weapon ur tears that icant resest so i lose coz theres no life to me if u cry.and itake u wherever u want despite my pain my worryes my work mattres and my sleepless.till u mercy me and my situation and u empty ur energy and we backto u idont know why ilive u as memory and why u force me on thatmy heart loverim sick of life idont see in it only ur shadows and how much it pain me and kill me when iknow about u with all world except me and udid u forget me.please come back to me for moment iwant from uur smell iwanna kiss u and touch ur face and see by my eye ur eyes and kiss itplease putt me in ur list of ur neerer iwant u for minutes iown it in the rest of my lifemy lovewhom icalled u by the precious person and u thrown melet me tell the time my great happnies story and my disasterhow crule is joy and sadness when come from one source and oh how crule when it be uback with me to this days when the heart declare his happnies by ur existance to life that miss only uu was my first beatufulest joy.u was my source to smile wideoh iwas never happy like iwas when u with me same as inever was sad like today when u away of meiwas watching ur days and all the change in ur features and i ask for whom we u well look likeiwas drawn u future idont want u have pain in sake itso igive all my effort to give u the crown even if u cant know the suffer for reachingo absentdid u know that im in absence darkness become wishing ur neerer and if its not easy iwish death be neerer and no neerer so i beg u so u go away and ikeep staggermy loveall ihave in my quiver is sleepless qustionsall ihave is toursim in country of memorys so ibe in sociability away of dark realitymy love ihave in my quiver sleeples qustion disturb my sleepis there any enmity betwen us desirve from u all that removal against meis the favor reawrd is ingratitude and betrayaldid u forget all memory did u forget how many times u make me sleepless by ur naughtynesshow much ineed to be ur prey and bring u ur askes and walk wherever u want and deliver it to ur sweet right hand and u taste it and with easy u well throw and all the effort well go away and iwell keep smilingis any crimes in my file idont know it and its hidin but ilife it as punishment cave.just tell me whats the crime.idont want u amke it less or exemption just tell meo cruleistill live u kiss u but under my eyelid every night irecall the memory and nothng else only repet itu cut the robs by door knoking voice i listen to the voice is't my heart longing beats or my hopes or my missing and all my dreams have become realand voice of reality stay more authority wasent u nor my heart knocks on the room door that hug my feeblity and breathed my sadness moan and shared my groan crumbsand slay the hope that it be u by another voice saying do u want anything before igo?imove my head as usal ido with him and he go and sadness marks on his face what iwant no one have it that is u(edah)when u be back iwant spread ur arms and smell u coz the age have so little now trust idont want back to ur corner ijust want to assured the heart of his residentibeg u back coz the age have so little moreis there any mercy edah