Wednesday, January 9, 2008

fear

fear from everything and anything fear from the fear itself.fear embodied inside me become so huge till icant push it back and he keep squeeze me till he take my breath away and crush my bones and make it ashes my fear embodied like gignatic monster swallow everything in me in just few seconeds without mercyfear from future from past from live from death from what after death fear from people from what they do at me or what ido at thim.fear is snaking in me he is runing with my blood ican feel it moving stable slowly inside me with confidance that nothing can beat him with smell of vactory on me and waiting the moment iwell surrender to him and rise my white flag and declare im loser and cant fight him.when iwant sleep he never leave me to and say wahhh do u think u can no idecided u r fear person u cant sleep u cant live normaly u cant be happy u well never have stable life.when ilaugh he wont let me he dont want me even breath he is eating me a live he only enjoy when icry when im sad he is compinion with my sorrow never can seprate them a part.belive me itry fight it itry run from it to land of safity i try and try and try but ifailed like allot of what ifail in it in my life but at lest im infront of unbrakeable enemy ican surrender to him without feeling guilty or anyone blame me.but for some reason itry just try to fight all my life when ihave challange i accept and keep trying even if ididnt win this challange but itry so imust at lest try against that fear and idid try.and when im tierd from trying idescover that????my fear is from myself only.........

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Most fear is fear of the unknown and most of us always have fear of that……….we fear things we have never experienced just by thinking that we will experience them and then maybe we never will experience them so we have wasted our time just fearing for the sake of fear alone.
The greatest fear is of Death because this is the most unknown and unknowable experience which we know we do all have to experience one day. Even those with faith can doubt but what can we do………we cannot avoid it by fearing it. All of us also experienced our own Birth but did we fear it? I think fear can be good or bad. It is good to fear if it can save your life. You fear a big height so you avoid it because you know you might fall off it. It is bad to fear if it stops you from moving on in life……..fear of new jobs, houses, people………fear then becomes a demon……..we should harness our demons and let them not control us.

Assel said...

we are scared of many things, but russian people say: risk is a noble thing...

once when i lived alone i was scared of something that i didnt know. as if one man, a silhouette or a transparent man came and wanted to strangle me...then i was fed up with being scared, i sorried for my poor heart that was hurted each time and promised myself no more fears, that's enough. so, i said to myself if that man or silhouette or whoever came i would kick or struggle, fight with him. so, since i am not scared so much.

i want to say, i helped myself psychologically, mentally and it really helped me...:)