the last massege

my love..ipromise it it well be my last massege coz my soul well get out of my bodyand iwell leave life foreverin the last massege...iwell not blame u or complin from uand iwell not beg love or passion from uiwell not ask to see u or hear ur voicebut....i wrote to say ilove uin the last massege... iwell not draw my brokenheart hugs ur heartiwell not force u on word..ilove uiwell not ask to lightening the pain of me or hope ur sympathyiwell not ask to inhalating ur scent smellin the last massege...iwell close my eyes to stop the tearsand well open my heart to receive last wordiwell say bye with silent and quietnessand iwell swallow last farewell glassshall it be my last sadness glassesin the last massege...iwrote to u best wishsand send u full of sencer and faithfulland give u my love and longinessif i still alivein the last massege...ideclare to u that iloved u and adore u madlyand u didnt even bouther urself to wip my tearsiswear to u by allah and all swearsthat u never feelt my existence in ur lifeand u didnt fell my love and passionin the last massege...iwell ask forgivness from my poor heartiwell ask forgivness from my pen and letterscoz nothing in my hand or my command in that lovein the last massege...ilove u from my death bed

calls

when destiny slaps u so hard on ur face and u screem but cant find who answer u then its call no one answer it.

when others enjoy to alughter ur feeling and u screem and u cant find anyone hears u then its call no one answer it.

when u been through a battle and u lose it and ur hopes breakes and u screem inside u and u cant find anyone hears u then its call no one answer it.

when u feel that life moves and u standing in ur place looking to ur past and ur present and u cant find anyone feels u then its call no one answer it.

when u wish in life little dream its not impossible but he is lees thing from ur rights in this life and u find world stand front of u by no word iwont give u ur little dream and in ur battle ecstasy with her u cant find anyone stand and aid u u screem insidely then its call no one answer it.

when u get shocked from someone have great place in ur heart then its call no one answer it.

when others use ur heart kindness and ur forgivness then its call no one answer it.

when u care about somene dont care for u and see u in the farest corner of his life then its call no one answer it

when u feel upset and search of tender chest to hug u and through to him ur burdins and u cant find it in this crowded life and u see him busy of u then its call no one answer it.

when u tierd and tierd to rest the other one and u dont find thanks word then its call no one answer it.

u wounder from this attitude coz u always been through it and never find who aid u or stand by u.rightthats what happins...............

wrinkless of the years

years go from ur age o manand with there speed but she without increase or decreasecounted by every every detail in scales with the creator of earth and the sky allah the benefactor the giver of all good the most preciouso man life pages twists by age and after death pages twistes by actso do for that day that u well need point to higher ur goods accountquery??? did u take the chance?did u work on increase ur account?ur account from goods?this life a helthy female full of young.roads of open doors of charmsperfume fulled in bottles seducing the heartsdrug gives the years temporery coma its like timed bomb soonest well explodeo man get ur youth before oldness
obviating ur days space before it be crowded its all a days dreamsand snow well invading ur hair and years lancet his wrinkles on ur facepulses get weaker and moments corrosest so the green heart spring get dryis theres anyway any escape if the expected guest come to u?

heart warmness

wether so cold more cold than all past years we just int decmber and its like all people wearing all clothes they have ilike winter ido like it its better than hot stucky summer that makes me want get out of my own skin but ifeel so cold like frezzing inever feelt like that before ijust drink 2 glasses of hot nescaffe but no use ifeel so cold imust get under some heavy blanket oh the coldness still the same imust find away for warmness maybe some window is open and it gives that coldness itry follow where the cold come from and checked all the crom it was all closed fully locked like treasury iwas like injured lion in cage cant escape and just waiting for his destiny icollapse down surrendring and accept the coldness that ifeel with one hope that some mircle come and give me warmness again.suddenly ifind wheres the souce of that coldness it was so neer to me it was stuckin to me it was my heart oh i almost forget it but now he remind me by painfull way remind me by emanating the coldness in me itouch it feelt it find it like piece of ice why and how he is working like that how he makes me stay alive and living day by day do all past time he is like that? or thats new idont know but all iknow its so painfull bearly ican stand it.what make it like that and why whats his reasons and where iget feelings from if the heart frezzing?oh icant find feeling ilost it iremember now ilost my feeling in the crowded market of feelings yeh ilost them there and cant find them again this life is big market have everything u imagin and u cant imagin.so please anyone in this market find my feeling bring it back to me it be great favor for hopless man like methen iwant know why my heart frzzing is coz he build dreams and wakeup on reality ?is't coz he didnt fullfil any of his wishes or is't coz he is single bird cant reach his mate coz his mate want another bird want someone else yeh it could be this heart like heron bird sings while he dying.imust check it now ifeel the end is neer and ineed to feel all of me still here idont want lose anything even ilost everything already.iclosed my eyes and my hand sneaking slowly to my chest and try to find my hert pulse but cant find any pulse ok thats not big dealing it's appears that ilost allot more than ithought imust recall my medical info wheres the heart place itink its little lifter on the chest yeh my finger find soft spot it must be there and my fingers make there way in the skin trying to catch that runaway heart but they go deep and depper and cant find anything yeh its the place iknow my fingers there inside my chest and can even touch and hold my artery the heart artery but theres no heart theres space there the heart someone take it from his place and left his artery crying on him crying by blood coz there no tears my heart gone he gone when u broke it and smash it to invisible pieces so no heart any more and the space that gives me the coldness.........but he left me something the only thing is left for me he left me ur name engraved in that space engraved so deep and even time cant efface it from there he left me ur name and last words beside it ilove u forever and cant live without u my only love in my life
please give me back my heart warmness

wisdoms

anger is strong air always blows the mind light
thorns well learn u allot belive me
water drops can make hole in stone not by vilonce but by repeting
tounge is not a bone but he can breake bones
we approache to be great same if we approache to be humbly
blame ur friend in secret and praise him in public
who ask wise man he take half of his wisdoms
if u get friend have afriend who forget his favour with u
ur houghts for u but ur words not for u
god gives every bird his livelihood but he dont throught in his nest
if the pretty women is diamond then the virtuous women is treasure
if u only have hammer u well treat anything as he is nail
dont challange anyone he dont have anything to lose
that most wise man who give people axcuses
the leader heart must be in his head

suffering heart

to u istill excpecting u and isleep and my tounge keep praying maybe u be guided and back to me my heart love r tiring thos memor yes.and her arrows have no mercy on my weakness or my bones softnessmy love in everyday night.iputt my head on the white pillow that full of my tears washing it.and close my eyes and eyelid on eyelid.and u penetrate me by ur black shirt and ur lips polluted withthe rest of ur sweetness and shake me with deep childesh violance u have to take u out.and itry convince u to delay it and u refused and use ur weapon ur tears that icant resest so i lose coz theres no life to me if u cry.and itake u wherever u want despite my pain my worryes my work mattres and my sleepless.till u mercy me and my situation and u empty ur energy and we backto u idont know why ilive u as memory and why u force me on thatmy heart loverim sick of life idont see in it only ur shadows and how much it pain me and kill me when iknow about u with all world except me and udid u forget me.please come back to me for moment iwant from uur smell iwanna kiss u and touch ur face and see by my eye ur eyes and kiss itplease putt me in ur list of ur neerer iwant u for minutes iown it in the rest of my lifemy lovewhom icalled u by the precious person and u thrown melet me tell the time my great happnies story and my disasterhow crule is joy and sadness when come from one source and oh how crule when it be uback with me to this days when the heart declare his happnies by ur existance to life that miss only uu was my first beatufulest joy.u was my source to smile wideoh iwas never happy like iwas when u with me same as inever was sad like today when u away of meiwas watching ur days and all the change in ur features and i ask for whom we u well look likeiwas drawn u future idont want u have pain in sake itso igive all my effort to give u the crown even if u cant know the suffer for reachingo absentdid u know that im in absence darkness become wishing ur neerer and if its not easy iwish death be neerer and no neerer so i beg u so u go away and ikeep staggermy loveall ihave in my quiver is sleepless qustionsall ihave is toursim in country of memorys so ibe in sociability away of dark realitymy love ihave in my quiver sleeples qustion disturb my sleepis there any enmity betwen us desirve from u all that removal against meis the favor reawrd is ingratitude and betrayaldid u forget all memory did u forget how many times u make me sleepless by ur naughtynesshow much ineed to be ur prey and bring u ur askes and walk wherever u want and deliver it to ur sweet right hand and u taste it and with easy u well throw and all the effort well go away and iwell keep smilingis any crimes in my file idont know it and its hidin but ilife it as punishment cave.just tell me whats the crime.idont want u amke it less or exemption just tell meo cruleistill live u kiss u but under my eyelid every night irecall the memory and nothng else only repet itu cut the robs by door knoking voice i listen to the voice is't my heart longing beats or my hopes or my missing and all my dreams have become realand voice of reality stay more authority wasent u nor my heart knocks on the room door that hug my feeblity and breathed my sadness moan and shared my groan crumbsand slay the hope that it be u by another voice saying do u want anything before igo?imove my head as usal ido with him and he go and sadness marks on his face what iwant no one have it that is u(edah)when u be back iwant spread ur arms and smell u coz the age have so little now trust idont want back to ur corner ijust want to assured the heart of his residentibeg u back coz the age have so little moreis there any mercy edah

look up

if u cant look forward coz ur future dark ad cant look on ur back coz ur
past painfull so then look up u well find ur god to ur destnition.
smile................
theres whom loves u.. care for u... protect u...give u glory...hear u...see u..its????
god the lord the creator ur creator ur lord allah
he take from u just to give u.
make u cry to laugh u.
deprive u to deign at u.
affict u coz he loves u.
just look up coz no one and no where but him in his almighty
look up u well not need to look any other way
who have the god he never lose anything and who lose god he never win anything
just look up to him

remember

dont lose hope if ur feets stumblesand falls in deep hole..u well get out of itand u more strong and tenacityallah well be with patientsdont get sad if u get killing arrow from theneerest ones to ur heart coz u well find who well takeout the arrow and bring u back life and laugh
dont putt all ur dreams in one personand dont make all ur life trip in for someone u love destnition whatever how u love himand dont think end of things is the end of the worldcoz the universe not what ur eyes seedont wait lover left uand wait new ray maybe can sneak to ur sad heartto back joyto ur heart and back his beautfuil pulses
dont try search of dream let u downand try to make from ur failer start for new dreamdonty stop much on the remains spicaly if the batstake it home and ghoust knowt the wayand search of voice of sparrow sneakingbehinde the horizon with new morning light
dont look to the papers that her color changeand the letters fade and the lines lost betwenpain and lonelinessu well discover that lines not the best u wroteand this paper not last thing u doand u must know the diffrance betwen who putt ur wordsin his eyes and who spare it with windthis words wasent just nice passing wordsbut its heart feeling live it letter by leterand man pulse carry it dreamlyand burn by her fire painly
dont be like heronthat strange bird who sing his best melody while he bleedsnothing on earth desirve one drop of ur blood
if winter close ur home doorsand the hills of ice surronded u from every placejust wait spring well come and open ur windowsfor pure air and look far u well seebirds back to sing againand the sun through her golden rays on the trees branchsto make new age and new dream and u new heart to u
pay all ur life just for true feeling and heart to containing uand dont pay second for runing loveor heart abandon u without reason
dont travile to desert searching of beautfil treescoz u well not find in desert except lonelnessand look to hundred of trees putt u under her shadowsand joy u by her fruits and grieve u by her singing
dont try to back yestrday accounts and what did u lost coz age when his leves fall it well never back againbut with every new spring new leves well growlook to this leves that covers sky face and forget what fall on ground coz it become part of it
if the yestrday have been lost..today in ur handsand if today well gather his leves and leave u havetomorrow..dont saden on yestrday coz he well never backand dont regret on today coz he is leavingbut dream of shinig sun in bright tomorrowif u didnt find what makes u happy then try tomake ur self happyand if u didnt find one to light a lamp.dont search ofsomeone extinguish itif u didnt find who can palnet rose in ur daysdont go to who planet arrow in ur heart and goes
we sometimes can get used of sadness till he be part of usand we become part of him.and sometime our eyes get usedof some colors so we lose the appility to see other colorseven if he try see whats arouand he well discoverthat black color is beautifull but the white is more prettyand the gray color of the sky moves the emotion and imaginationbut sky color is more pure in his blueness.so search of the pureness even for momentand search of sincerity even its tiriring and hardand hold the sun rays even its farawayand dont let ur heart and emotions and ur days to thingshere time lost already
sometimes sadness sniking us till we used itand forget that theres in life allot of things can amke us happyand allot of faces arouand us can lightin in ur days darkness a candleso search of heart gives u light and dont let urself hostage to saden of dark nights

soul mirror

did u ever look into ur soul mirror?its hard test no one can face itunless he can fce this world with all of it of darkness and fears and struglesin ur first try to search of ur real face that lost betwen huge amont of masks that u own and shows to whoever u want and whenever u want.u well discover udont find ur real face or u did forget his looksu well find masks u dont know if u wear it or not or u prepare it for sometime.masks u used of it and hate some of it.that mask u know very well its ur weakness mask and kindness infront of who ulove.that must ilove it much but he always tire me and make u just shadow for others so u well never show on stage lights makes u bear mistakes and overload urselfand whats this mask?its ugly u hate it and wish u can through in garbagefake and hypocrisy mask and how u wear and others in ur endless ambition race.but after that he well make u feel disgust with urself and from whom arouands me even so u dont use it much so idont think its ur real face or u be repulsive personthird mask and theres more.shame mask a mask that wear out from the useing in age noone use that mask unless he back from globalzistion and even this mask u well not wear allot so u well called by underdevlopment and narrow-mindednessand that mask that thrown in the room corner its romantic mask and u get enough of it let him be awaymask u step on it by ur feet its despair mask and ithink u do the right thing coz if u want reach ur true face u must keep away the despair masku get tierd from the search and look to all this masks and now still the qustion do u still have ur true real face or u lost it forever?is ur real face formed from all this masks togther so u cant wear it spreated?do u the only who must search of ur real face or the world arouand u also wears masks.????/finaly for all who cares ilost my real face who find it iwell give him rewared.that could be me or u or him or her or them or anyone.

YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

You Are The Love Of My Life
I knew it right from the start
The moment I looked at you
You found a place in my heart
You Are The Love Of My LifeYou
give me reason to live
You taught me how to be strong
With you is where I belong
No one's ever touched meQuite the way you touched me
People search a life time
To find what we have
You Are The Love Of My Life
One thing that's good in this life
I'll spend the rest of my days
Just loving you
You Are The Love Of My Life
The heart and sould of my life
Once I was lost and alone
With you at last I am home
You Are The Love Of My Life
You give me reason to live
You give me so much of you
And leave me room to be free
No one's ever touched me
Quite the way you touched me
People search a life time
To find what we have
You Are The Love Of My Life
One thing that's good in this life
And in a world full of change
One thing I'm sure of
You Are The Love Of My Life
The one thing that makes sense in this world
I'll spend the rest of my days
Just loving you...
You Are The Love Of My Life
And I thank GOD I'm alive
To spend my lifetime with you
You Are The Love Of My Life.